Where and Who I Am

Human

This year has been a funny year so far… I have tried so hard to keep God in my sights through all the decisions I make, and it is so ironic that even when we try our hardest to keep God at the center, Satan still gets in and toys around with our emotions and feelings and makes us question our motives constantly. It just shows how human we actually are.

I think it is funny how God works and how He brings us to different stages in our lives, even if those stages are merely a week a part. I am just so thankful that God puts certain people in our lives to uplift us and to encourage us and to walk with us in life, we just cannot forget that they are people as well.

I am so blessed, I look around my dorm room and I have so many letters of encouragement and love around me, lifting me up to God. I just get so caught up sometimes in what is going on in my life, that I forget to lean on God. It bothers me that I am never going learn that lesson completely… I wish I could have learned it completely when i learned it the first time, but I guess that is how God keeps us humble.

I just pray that God keeps me in His hand and leads me to where He wants me. I am praying about going to Japan this coming summer. I thought I felt God calling me there, now my thoughts are clouded with doubts that God may not want me there, but I was so sure before… All I can do is pray and keep moving forward with God.

Philippians 4:6-7

Life

Oh World,

My life is coasting along smoothly and safely, until I stop for a second to actually contemplate all that is going on in my life. I’ve been giving everything up to God when they come across me, but then I forget to actually understand everything I’m going through, so when I realize all that is going on I freeze and break down… not a very good thing. But life is wonderful, God has placed me and all my lessons right here in this place and time “for such a time as this”. God has so many things to do in my life and heart, and He is going to use me as He is preparing me.

My classes are hard, but wonderful! My friends are amazing! God s giving me opportunities to meet new people and to get to know other friends either better. God has encouraged me to begin a small group, and we will get together some time this week! I am so excited to see what God is going to do with it. Life isn’t stopping for me, I just have to keep on rolling along with the waves, its a great thing that Jesus is here with me to hold me hand the whole time.

Please if anyone is reading this, keep me in your prayers, I need as many as I can get. Pray that God gives me patience and understanding and intentionality. I am praying for you as well, and praying that God will use you eahc and every day and you will be open to Him using you !

The Plan

Well, school has started…. Wow, I missed it so much. I love walking to class, occasionally saying hi to all my random friends across campus, and sitting in classes and slightly getting to know the characters of all my different professors. Starting my day right, I realize, is so crucial to the rest of my day.
God is bringing everything together. I am seeing, for the first time, all of the different journeys and pieces of my life coming together and pointing in a certain direction. Wow, I am so excited for life! God is showing me where He wants me to go, where He wants to place me in this world. I won’t write it down here, because that is a little impersonal, but it is some place which should have hit me before, but I didn’t. It is so obvious to me now, but my eyes were shielded, and that was in the plan of God, He reveals things to His people, when they can handle it and when they can understand, and when they are willing to listen. All of my classes mean so much more to me now because, I see how they will help me in the area of which I am heading. It is so eye-opening. Wow, I don’t think I can exclaim it enough!
Just please pray for me! That I start my days right and that I continue in my studies seriously because it will help me in the way God wants me to go. I have so much to look forward to and so much to be excited about! Pray, pray, pray!

Phil 4:6-7

Inspiration

I’ve thought a lot about what inspires me and what makes my heart throb with wonder and anticipation. For some its colorful crayons laying on the carpet, or an empty canvas… For others its the busy sounds of the street and the colors of the city. I’ve realized that so many things inspire me and make my soul burn and ache with desire to do…. something! For example, old movies with artistic and deep lines, inspire me to want to talk like Audrey Hepburn or Cary Grant. Pictures of Grace Kelly and women from the 40’s and 50’s inspire me to dress with femininity and grace, but I like to add a little randomness to my style as well. Watching a science fiction movie inspires me to be hard core and kick some butt! Partaking in the most amazing experience for me, watching a play or a musical, excites such a burn in my soul that I feel the NEED to be on the center of that stage and play a long side those actors. Watching corny film musical also bring out this burning excitement in my lungs…. Singing on stage is what makes my heart throb and pound…. Well, my plane is descending so I’ll have to cut this blog short!

Being Inspired,
Meagan